Thursday, October 28, 2010

guess what...

FINALLY we have high speed. After one year and almost seven months it is here. Long day, brutally long last two weeks. Have tons to say but really need to get sleep.

This is a recent trip to Fort Anne in Annapolis Royal which is about 20 minutes from our house. The view is incredible. It was such a windy day we had a blast being blown all over those hills.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

long week...

Bliss is fine and recovering nicely.

The surgery was so much more than anyone expected.

The doc expected a 1-1.5 hour surgery. He was operated on for 2.5 hours.

He had all 4 crowns he had removed and they crumbled when he went in. They had to dig out pieces. some needed stitching. He had abscesses in all four teeth for who knows how long. It has been 11 months since we were there initially.

He had to have all 4 four year molars crowned. The good news is no nerve work was needed. He has 3 of his 6 year molars in a;; very recently and one already has the signs. They did sealants on the 3 that are in.

They said his teeth were excellently cleaned and flossed and the cleaning they did was a breeze as a result. He got molds for 4 spacers and we have to go back in a week to have them put in.

Bliss was brave and amazing and also terrified and devastated. he cried in my arms a lot. I cried a lot.

I hate this. I hate that every time he has a snack he asks if it will hurt his teeth. I hate that he flosses 2-4 times a day and brushes the same amount and eats so so healthy and worries that the wrong thing will end him up in a hospital with needles in his arm and pain.

PLEASE if you have not been through this and researched over 40 hours and spent years living this do not tell me what we should be doing. We do it all, have spent thousands on the best dentists and the fact is the same bacteria that is in every mouth out there got in his in a way that caused this and will always cause this to his baby teeth. It doesn't affect his adult teeth and it has not shown yet in Soul. But it is hell and my son just had his 5th surgery before he is 8 and it sucked.

Anyhow he has had a day of unlimited Wii and homemade shakes and soft foods and lots of doting and he is in great spirits so that is what I choose to focus on.

I know we are incredibly lucky that this is why we were at the Children's hospital and so many children are truly sick and it is devastating.

But I am his mama and I wish I could make this all better for him or go through it for him.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

uh huh...

So yeah, they came this morning....

and once again they cannot hook me up.

I knew this would happen. When I spoke to the appointment setter I told them they still had to put in a telephone pole, they assured me there was "no way" that would be necessary now.

So I need to have the telephone pole installed.

So another 2-4 weeks.

Glad I hadn't held my breath.

But shit Bliss was thew most disappointed.

But he is ok and we are fine. It has been over 18 months, what's another one.

Practicing my zen these days on a daily basis.

P.S. Are you all watching the rescue in Chile with your hearts in your throats. My goddess I am glues to the television watching and sending out thoughts and lighting candles for their safe ascent.

Monday, October 11, 2010

stay tuned...

So they tell me they will be here tomorrow to hook me up with high speed. I will let ya'll know, but I am not holding my breath. If you start seeing ridiculous amounts of pictures posted you will know it is finally hooked up.

I got the call Thursday evening that Bliss is scheduled for dental surgery this coming Thursday. It has been an 11 month waiting list. I really like the docs but it has been long.

Saturday night Bliss informed me the "stars in his eyes were maybe sending a message."

To give a little background, a couple months ago Bliss told me one day he saw stars. I assumed it was from doing flips off the couch or playing Wii that day and was not too worried. He said he felt fine and they did not bother him.

Well come to find out he sees stars almost ever day. They are different colors and then sometimes lots of tiny white ones and also this big one that covers his entire field of vision (I taught him what your field of vision is so now he uses the phrase) but that he can see through.

After a lot of time googling with dial up I am of the mind he is experiencing ophthalmic migraines. He does not usually get headaches but looking back he has had one maybe two days in the past 3-4 months where he said he had a headache and he was drinking lots of water so dehydration did not seem likely. One I can recall lasted most of the day but we treated it with homeopathic medicine and he said he was ok.

We went to the clinic this weekend to check him out since today is a holiday (Happy Thanksgiving Canada we had a great feast cooked by me) and I wanted him seen before his surgery. The doc was nice and said he did not think it could be retinal detachment but he also could not do a dilated exam there and would refer me with a STAT on it.

From everything I have read they are not harmful, usually do not have pain with them and are not really treated except symptomatically. Bliss also learned he would be needing glasses.

Now he steals my glasses all the time (as does Soul and it makes me nuts) and Bliss is absolutely stunning in glasses but he looked at me with tears in his eyes and said "mama I do not want to 'need' to wear glasses" and my heart just broke. That coupled with him learning he was having surgery so soon the day before and I just feel for him.

He is healthy,brilliant, kind, caring, and my love and truly my Bliss. I wish I could make this all at least better times but all I can do is love him, talk with him, and let him know it is ok to feel whatever he is feeling and I am there loving him.

The week before all this our front door had t be replaced and I learned we had rot from water damage down into the foundation beams. And we have to be in Halifax the day before surgery to see the anesthesiologist and I reserved a hotel with a water slide to take his mind off the surgery. Of course this all means money and things are so damn rough right now.

I have the lunch truck up for sale but have not even had a bite yet. Goddess selling that would make life soooooo much easier right now.

Anyhoo hopefully they show up tomorrow and I can FINALLY try and get back to working from home along with everything else.

Anyhow I would love some good wishes sent Bliss's way.