Sunday, November 21, 2010


My love, my sun, my moon, my life, my sweet, beautiful, kind, caring, joy is eight today. From the moment you came into my life I have been so happy and honored, and grateful to be able to be your mother.

You have given my life such joy, such meaning, such depth. You have healed me, challenged me, taught me and loved me.

I am so lucky.

He was up late last night. He gets so excited and makes himself a wreck before his birthday. he was up until past 10 at night then woke up at 1:30 in the morning. There were a lot of tears and it broke my heart. He was just so excited and anxious. Soul woke up and tried to comfort him and after lots of talking, lots of cuddling, and a long warm shower he finally fell asleep by 4am. He woke up at 6:30. My sweet boy.

He had a lovely day and got lots of gifts he loved. he even had gotten his sister a gift so she felt included in the day.

We watched the movie of his birth before bed tonight. I cried a lot then. I cannot believe he is 8.

We have spent every day together for 8 years. We have co-slept every night for 8 years and I can honestly say I have loved every moment of being his mama.

It goes by so fast, it is so unfair.


Monday, November 1, 2010


Really insane week/weeks. Exhausted with a baby not going to sleep well lately so this will be more brief catch-ups.

Good news. Bliss does not need glasses after all. He had a very thorough exam and the spots he sees are what I thought but even more importantly nothing to worry about. The clinic docs eye charts need adjusting apparently because they said he has only a half a diopter off of 20/20 vision with zero signs of near-sightedness like his mama has. Very happy about that after his last few weeks.

We had a rough experience at Aikido the other night that we are working through but nevertheless we left early as Bliss was not feeling well and on the way home a deer ran into us. It was upsetting and scary and we are all ok but the car is in the shop.

We are on our third rental which is such a joke but the second one went nuts with pushing out burning heat even when putting the a/c on at 6am this morning and would not allow window defrost with the first snow outside. We had to limp to the rental place to exchange cars to make it to Halifax in time for Bliss to get his spacers put on, in, on, whatever.

They are all done and he is done with dentists for at least 6 months and hopefully done with surgeries for decades.

We had an ok Halloween but it came with stress from everything else happening and also came with a lot of very cold rain but they looked adorable and had fun trick or treating. I will post pics soon as I get them off the camera.

I still have numerous back posts to write with lots more pics.