Today is three years since I began this blog. It amazes me. So much has happened since then. I began this blog because I was facing infertility and needed support to get through it. I knew if I was to be able to deal with it I would need the support of other women who "got it" and understood what I was going through. It was not something I could find in my circle of friends and I knew if I was to make it through the long haul I had to get what I needed to survive.
I found Mel's blog and found my lifeline. Looking back I am proud of myself for knowing what I needed and seeking it out. It makes me chuckle because it could be seen as a sign of maturity and that sounds so corny, but I have come a long way in my life and I think it is important to be aware of your journey and give yourself kudos for your own growth.
Anyhow three years, wow, it has been quite a journey. I always knew I would get here, but not how, and not when. I knew I would end up here though, because I knew I would never stop until I did, it was too important to me. That is why I had to have support, because I was not sure how hard the road would be and I knew I needed help making it through. It was far more difficult than I could have ever imagined, but also really OK.
When I was young and went through crap I had this fear/dread of thinking things would never get better. That I would always feel that way that I was feeling. It was awful and really unhealthy. I know better now and it makes for a much less painful world for me in general. I think having this blog has really helped me achieve an awareness of that knowledge.
So thank you all, each and every one of you who has read and supported me these last three years. It has meant everything to me, it has gotten me through. It is how I am here today with my daughter and my sanity in tact.
My love to you all.
11 comments:
sending much ♥♥ back at'cha!
and happy belated thanksgiving!
Sending so much love and hope you had a wonderful thanksgiving.
Happy blogoversary, sweetie.
Funny, I started blogging 3 years ago on the 26th. I think though it was about a year after I started that I started reading your blog.
This is a truly amazing community and I've "met" a lot of fabulous people. I'm so glad you're one of them!
Happy blogoversary! :)
Happy happy day day! You have come so far in the short time I have followed you. Yours was one of the first blogs I "discovered" in my BBC days. You give me hope that good things can happen for me and all of us out here in IF land. Congratulations!
I have enjoyed reading your blog and learning about your life and experiences.
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I started the project six years ago, filming myself and the other women for two years. But when my kids were born I took a hiatus, for many reasons. Two years later the call to continue came when a friend wrote an article on single mothers by choice. These women were freaks. They were humorless, even their children seemed to bring them no joy. I become obsessed with telling the story from the inside. The film received a New York State Council of the Arts grant which took it through more shooting. Editing has just been completed by a two-time Academy Award nominee who worked on deferment because he believed so strongly in the project. Now all we need is to raise finishing funds to get it out.
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3 years is amazing! I will be joining you on that milestone in February...
Yeah for three years and yeah for Mel huh? I found my lifeline too through her. I started my blog back in 06 too, how time flies man.
Happy blogoversery!
Ditto what others have said - yours was one of the first blogs I found when I entered the land of IF. When I found your blog, you were newly pregnant with Soul and I was just getting started TTC. I didn't know yet what the road ahead would be like, and seeing your journey - and how hard it was - scared me and I was impressed with your courage and ability to deal with challenges. Now? Now your blog gives me hope.
I lost the link to your blog, I am glad I found it again! Happy Anniversary and congratulations on your lovely daughter's birth! She is adorable. Now you are three! Did you move to Canada in the end..?
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