I just wanted to post quickly for an update. First off thank you sooooo much for the wonderful support from everyone. It really means the world. As per usual getting it out makes such a huge difference.
Things are not going better really, a lot of new stuff has come up.
"I" am doing so much better. All your amazing support and encouragement and uplifting words really did just that. Lifted me up. I feel so much less crushed and so much more loved which is really all it comes down to eh? Feeling heard, understood, cared for.
(Did ya'll notice how I slipped that eh right in there all natural like? I am sooo becoming a cannuck!)
So where to begin. The high speed. As of yesterday they have "supposedly" completed 100% of all rural high speed here and I should be able to call and make an appointment for hook-up. A friend here did just that and was informed they had no available appointments in her area and they would call her when they did. Fun huh? Well I cannot even do that because I was informed that at my location they have to have the power company erect a power pole before they can hook up my home. It will be tower, to booster to some sort of catcher at the top of the pole to my home and my neighbors. I hope this will not be another 6 months but it could very well be. They will let me know when they know.
I also hope that when I am eventually hooked up all that relaying does not slow me down to barely above what I have now, but who knows.
On the doctor front I was on the phone hours and hours the past week. I finally got through to the specialist and after many calls back and forth with nurses and whatnot he called and told me he would give me a 3 month supply but wanted to see me then and oh by the way he wants to stop one of my thyroid meds completely. He doesn't like it. I was almost in hysterics. I have been on these meds forever and it has taken careful work to get them just right. My blood levels are currently perfect, which he agrees but he doesn't seem go care. So now in 3 months I go back to him and see him and another specialist to discuss completely changing my life. Sigh.
Then there is my fridge. It went out back in Feb. It is not old. The guy came out and replaced a sensor. He had to come back a week later and replace the compressor. It is under warranty, which transferred over from the US (yay) and all seemed fine. Cut to 2.5 months after or 3 days before the naming ceremony and it gets warm again and I have him back out. He checks it over and informs me the freon is almost out so it must be a leak but then he says his leak sensor batteries are out. I say I have some but he says he will come back the next day and in the meantime he will re-fill the freon. I say ok and the fridge gets cold again. The next day he calls and says he will be back on Monday. I say fine. I have the ceremony to get ready for, the fridge is cold for now all is fine.
He never comes back. I call and call. I call the Maytag back, they say sorry, that is not ok and put out for another lace to come by. Well I talk to them and they do not come to my area. The other place that comes to my area does not deal with freon. The local parts rep says he will call or email the original guy because he "has to" come back and fix it. This has been going on a month folks.
The latest now is Maytag is going to replace my fridge.But they do not have mine anymore and do not have any side by sides available at there warehouse so will I take a french door one. I do not want that but then I say I will think about it a few days. But oh by the way there is a replacement fee because you are in the last year of your warranty and it will cost you $452 to replace it. All because there are not only no docs but no other repairmen in your area.
I was never rude to this man. Ever. I never complained about the mess he left, or how he pushed back the fridge over grease and mud he left. Or how I pulled a piece of wire insulation out of Soul's choking mouth because he never picked up after himself. I never said one thing but hello and weather talk.
But now I am having to figure out how to come up with $452 to replace my fridge I love with one I do not even want. And if that one ever has a problem what am I to do??? This guy is apparently the only repairman in my entire area for all brands.
In other news, of the good sort. I did hear today that they may have found a family doctor for me. They do not know if he will take my family as well but I am hopeful to even hear that much. I am to wait for a call.
Bliss is loving Ricky Ricotta, I had found a book of the series for him and today he read the entire book, on his own, of his own accord. He even stopped his Wii time to read it. I was thrilled!!!! Now I have to get him the whole series pronto.
Soul is adorable and has commenced with 2 new talents. Shrieking and sticking her hand down her throat until she gags or pukes. Nut!!! Both freak me out every time. I am sure I will get used to the shrieking but not the other. She does do this freaking adorable blinking game with me though.
So that is where I am at. I am in a better place and plugging along and only sometimes dreaming of packing it all in and joining a commune.
Thank you again for all your wonderful support. I shall leave you with 2 recent pics.